Fourth of July
Star spangled night with my lover
And his two other lovers

I know this
I don't know this

Jumpy nervous hands find Anaprox
"Take these to kill the pain"
Blisters long gone the pain remains
Twitching fingers drop pills
Through tight smiling lips

When the fireworks are disappointing
The conversation trite
The tight lips unable to smile
Feet travel to party haven

I know you
I don't know you
Doesn't matter with beer in one hand
cigarette in the other
Pipe in one hand
Cigarette in the other
Some of that new kind of Pepsi?
No, no more stress for me
No.

Wine in one hand
Cigarette in the other
Pipe in one hand Cigarette in the other
Walk in the rain
Cigarette after cigarette
More beer
Cigarette, cigarette

The rain is gone
Room with cigarettes and pipe
Are there people here?
Chatter says so

Wine in one hand
I'm fine
Cigarette in other
Wine cigarette chatter
Where did they go?

Soul's slip knot
I watch the world wave past
The pain will not leave
It pulls from the pit of my stomach
I thought I was special
through blue horse pills
Prescription for an aching wound
I don't love you
Drowned in alcohol
It burbles and gasps
Why not?
Smoky toxins can't cloud the images
Racing from inside
Behind the black veil of eyes
That will no longer open
I don't believe in pre-marital sex
Spewing words of truth
BULLSHIT, YOU FUCKED ME
Babbling nonsense
You're talking nonsense
I can't understand you
Sifts in through the cloud
I try to shut up
Am I dying?
I hear sirens
No the talk of ambulance
I have lost ambulance
Frozen in crystal whispers
Too far gone for help

An unknown hand holds mine
I call the hand friend
Open my eyes
In some new place